Inquiry

Ok so.... this is more of an inquiry, than a blog, but oh well. Do you think it is wise to tell someone how you feel no matter what?? I want your honest opinions. I just did, and I don't know if it was a wise thing or not. I will post a new blog later, this has just been on my mind.

The Lord hears us

SO! Last night I got set up on a blind date with a RM. I was a little skeptical at first, only a month back and I was his first date!, but I went and had a superb time. We doubled with an old friend I haven't seen in forever. After driving ALL OVER the valley trying to find some where to eat that didn't have a 2 hr wait, we finally decided Chili's! It was amazing as Chili's always is, and the company was so fun! Then we got a call saying a friends son had ran away, and could we help look for him. (We of course said yes!) We went looking around the Murray area (that is where he lives) and at Murray High my date asked my friends husband to pull over so we could pray. He offered a prayer that we might find the son. We started driving around some more and then all of us got the feeling that we needed to go wait at their house. Low and behold, the son was there! He had waited til his parent's left and snuck back in! The whole experience made me step back in awe. The Lord answered our prayer. It also humbled me a little, made me remember to put the Lord first in all that I do, and I will be greatly rewarded. This is just a little experience, but it is proof that the Lord lives. That he answers our prayers, and that he loves each of us. I am so grateful to have been able to experience that little "reminder". So, my lesson for you today (haha) is this, no matter what faith you decide to believe in, no matter how often you go to church, pray daily. The Lord will hear those prayers, and you will feel him with you every step of the way. Thanks for reading my rambling. I hope this touched you by reading it even a quarter as much as it did with me experiencing it.

31 random facts about Me

Most of you have facebook, so this won't be unfamiliar. I just wanted to do it again, with more "me" responses. Enjoy


1. I love staying home, curled up on the couch, reading a book.

2. While out at a club or what not, I usually wish we were doing something more chill

3. I am a closet romantic

4. I love to wake up really early on spring and summer weekend mornings, grab some hot chocolate, go outside, and read the morning paper.

5. I love being a goof ball more than anything.

6. I am a firm believer that you don't have to spend money to have fun.

7. I am big on family, and one day hope to have a big one.

8. I laugh at stupid things, or when I am nervous, and I ALWAYS cry when I get really mad.

9. I get really mad at my brother for not getting a job, and just wasting his life, but then I continue to give him money

10. I find peace in cemetaries. I know the person isn't there anymore, but I still feel comforted while visiting loved ones.

11. I have a sick fascination for homicide books. Why? I have no idea.

12. I hate wearing shoes, but I have HUGE shoe fetish

13. I love horror movies, but I don't think any are scary until after when I in my dark room alone.

14. I am the biggest nerd I know

15. I think the rain is uber super romantic

16. I actually LIKE being set up on dates. How else would I get to meet some of the people I have otherwise?

17. I think I am really funny, even though I probably am not

18. I feel blessed everyday to have the friends that I do have

19. I think bowling is uber super fun, even though I am the worst bowler.

20. Bad grammer is a HUGE turn off for me.

21. I have really high goals for myself this year, and I'm happy to say, most of them are already in the works

22. I make up random nicknames for my friends, and the worst ones always stick

23. If I had to pick between read, and eat, I would pick read. Sure I will die, but I will die happy.

24. Thinks life is fantastic, even the trials. We all go through things for different reasons.

25. Hates popcorn, bananas, and whip cream.

26. Thinks there is nothing more fun/scary than "meeting the parents"

27. I would love to go on "vacation" to the space station.

28. I really want to go sky diving, and bungee jumping, so if any of you wanna go, let me know. I am totally down!

29. Loves writing. I am not so good as I used to be, but it brings me joy.

30. My favorite subject in school has always been history.

31. Just checked spell check, and I didn't spell one word wrong!

Today was a good day

So my good friend Punk had his farewell today. That was really fun, and very inspiring to go to. He did fantastic on his talk, and I know that he is going to make an amazing missionary!
My dad also went with me! That was really exciting. He hasn't been to church in years. I myself have just started going again, so you can imagine the immense happiness I felt at having my dad there. My mom was also going to go, but she isn't doing so well. I loved seeing most of Punk's family today. They are amazing, genuine people. Not much else has been happening lately. Although I got a weird text, from someone I love with all my heart, that I am anxiously awaiting the explanation to. More on that if anything comes to it! (Lets hope it does) That is pretty much it in the world of Shaye this weekend.

Just had to get it out

I am lonely,
I miss you more than you will know.
I lay in bed crying at night,
But I guess you reap what you sew.

You made me smile,
You always made me laugh,
Now I have to grin and bear it
While my heart has been torn in half.

I am trying to get over you.
I am lying to myself every day.
I want to be in your arms,
Every moment, and there just lay

You have no idea the turmoil,
The ache I feel for you.
If there is anything to get you back,
Just give me a tiny clue.

Just a quick peek into my mind

I have decided. I am ok. I have been loved, and I have loved with all my heart. I know what it is to be loved, and I feel grateful for that opportunity. Travis taught me alot of things, and he is a big part of who I am today. He always will be in my heart, and that way he will always be with me.

A little easier

Today was slightly easier to get through, that could be the valium talking though. I don't know how long this is going to take me to get over... maybe a long time... but I thought of some stuff today that made the pain subside. Happiness may be a long way away, but atleast I can find comfort in the fact that I will find it again. I appreciate every one being so supportive. When you ask, is there anything I can do though, how is someone supposed to answer that question? I am picking myself up tomorrow, and going back to work. Sitting around is just harboring these feelings. Wish me luck.